Thursday Night Song

Thursday Night Song

August 28, 2003 - 9:16pm

"When I was a child
I spoke as a child
I understood as a child
I thought as a child;
but when I became a man,
I put away childish things."
- 1 Corinthians 13:11

"When I was a child I spoke as a child
But all I heard was how I should get ahead,
Now growing up it ain't anything but all
This indecision with these debts and doubts
And worries hanging over my head"
- Todd Snider

It makes me sad, but I am growing up.

True, I have more Homies than anyone in my office, marching in a line across my new desk. True, I have an application to date me which questions rival even the most snarky online dating service (By the way, Will is so in the lead right now). True, I sleep in what essentially is a glorified bunk bed decorated with rope light and stuffed animals.

But I wish so much for time to just slow down a little so I could drink and paint and sleep for days and not have to see anyone or pretend to be happy for everyone. Keeping secrets is exhausting.

6. Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind

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August 28, 2003 - 9:26pm

Will (not verified)

Glad to see you liked my application. You know, I really didn't like it at first, but I went back and re-read it and realized that it really was funny. And I totally understand how you feel about pretending to be happy. It's quite hard to be the people pleaser at times. I wish I had a cabin by a lake to offer you to spend a few days, but sadly, I'm not that wealthy. Yet...

August 28, 2003 - 10:19pm

Amanda (not verified)

Thank ya...thank ya...thank ya for updating your journal!!! I wasn't forced to look at all that "smut" out there all because you updated. You're helping me overcome my addiction...haha! I owe you girl

August 30, 2003 - 8:45pm

Sam (not verified)

Yay! Jenna updated! I love your new design. And yes, I totally understand exactly how you feel...

August 30, 2003 - 9:32pm

Air Force Buddy (JJ) (not verified)

Hey JENNA!!!!! Ok a little about insanity. You only get a small spec of insanity, it makes the world seem like everything but you is normal. But if you really look around you can see that this world is so much more crazy than you are. You need to hold on to your insanity because once it is gone the world slows down and just isn't interesting anymore, and what is the fun in that?? Life is meant to be lived and to live means to be crazy at least once even if for only a second. Don't worry so much, don't wish that everything were different, because it is all so beautiful, and if you stop worrying about being crazy and just look around you can see the glory in all things. In your life, trapped in tapestries, in buildings of wood and stone, in the soft gusts of cool wind that brush against your face, how leaves dance to the ground, and all the beauty that you hold inside. Don't get lost because it is all so glorious to be found.

September 5, 2003 - 11:01am

Maggs (not verified)

Jenna, didn't you miss hearing things like that from J.J? It's so beautiful and it really makes you think "wow! I'm missing the little, wonderful things in life." At least, that's how reading J.J.'s words just made me feel.

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